Real or Fantasy

I hate the real world. the real world is stoopid. i've never gotten along the real world. So i created my own. my world is still dangerous and hard. and i go through many trials. but i feel more comfterble there then in this world. the world where i'm trapped. theres no way out. but my fanatsy world. that feels more real to methen anything. i see things from that world in the this "Real" world. they follow me they stalk me. i know what they want. but i refuse to give it them. i'll keep fighting back until i win. i'm determined to win. if you want to know more about that world. look on my other 2 blogs. ....i just wish i could dissapear from this world.

There and back again

i rather hate that saying. "There and Back again." the reason i hate it is because what if you don't want to go back. what if you want to just stay where you are? thats the story of my life. i leave my home i want to stay away and not go back. because when i go back i know exactly whats going to happen. i'll be ignored and looked down upon. and i'll feel like sinner in a house hold of similar people. I'm the only odd one in the family. everyone else gets along. except me. i'm different and they judge me and look down on me because of it.  So why go back? why not just stay where i'll be happy and never looked down on. Somewhere where i fit in...somewhat. i don't really fit in anywhere. i guess thats my randomness for tonight.

so true

Being on my Own

I love being on my own. i don't have to deal with my parents family or anything it's been great. but the thing i miss the most is my best friend  who is a year younger then me so we live 30 minutes apart all though it feels farther and we never get to see each other D': and being on my own has made me even more antisocial i think....my roommates have all gone on dates and such except for me. oh we'll. and i can barley get anyone to talk to me even if i start the conversation. oh we'll i don't know why it's bugging me. i'm used to it. at least i should be thats how my life has always been. -sighs - oh we'll i have and interview today for a Internship at Disney i really hope i get it. and if i do i'll be moving to California or Florida.  witch will be so much fun but even harder to see my best friend D: but we'll get though it.my brother comes home in november i'm really excited.he'll come back and if i get the internship i'll move out in a few months after. we'll thats all i have to say for now for anyone who reads my blog.

Moved out

I have moved out. and it's been great. i have 5 room mates. Ariel ( from Tiwan) Cris (from Colombia) Kelsi (from Idaho) Natalie (from saratoga springs or something like that) Jenny (i think she's from provo i'm not sure) there pretty great i've been having a good time all though i do miss Sydney/Jade my best friend. it's so stoopid that were a year apart. -sighs - oh we'll. work is we'll work boring. but oh we'll i work at  2 tomorrow till like 8:30 pm it's going to be a long day

Home Alone

So i'm home alone for the weekend and i'm so EXCITED!!!!!!!!! and i'm going to have the best time of my life!!!!!! no siblings no parents!!!!! WOOT!!!!! (i would post more but i don't want to put what i'm going to be doing.)

Cabin

 you know when people say "cabin" you picture a small wooden house. we'll aperently that has all changed when they say "cabin" they mean 3 story house. i just went to one like that it was HUGE it had 11 or so bedrooms 3 bathrooms (one of them was huge i wondered who needed a bathroom that big) a gaming room with arcade gace etc...and it was fun it made me think of how i want my dream house. the best part was i got to do Archery i did really good! i want my own bow D: i luffs bows....swords....lightsabers....daggers....every awesome cool weapons i luffs them....yeah..

First Post

This is my first post for my new blog. i'll be having a ton of stuff on here. and what not but right now i don't really know what to put so i'm just putting this. (all though i doubt anyone reads my blogs) and why i do this i don't know