Losing a Friend.

Recently i have kinda felt like i've been loosing one of my friends. It makes me really sad. We used to be really close and now they just seem to be pulling away. I used to talk to this friend all the time. and tell them everything. but now we barley talk.and when try i get one word answers that i can't really do anything with. I really hope i didn't do anything to offend this person. or something. I really hope things will get better. But i don't know if they will. I really don't want to loose another friend. :(   

The Joys.

Why i titled this the joys. i'm not sure. Then i should ask myself what do i joy? I could say i enjoy going to work. but that's only partially true. I really only like working when i work with Tysen. Cuz we've gotten close. but other then that i don't really like work that much. i get ignored alot. so i don't enjoy it as much as the others. I really enjoy Disneyland.  i can't wait to work there. i guess i enjoy watching T.V.,Role playing,Live Role Playing, Video gaming, Swimming, cooking, baking. i guess. reading this list kinda makes me sound lame. but i guess that's what happens when you don't really have any friends. you may ask as the reader why i'm posting this. I can honestly say. I have no Idea. now. i have a question for you. as my reader.Why do you read my blog? it's not that entertaining or exciting.  just dull and boring. just like me. all though my best friend knows i'm truely insane.You might ask why don't i post my insane stuff. i dunno. it might do with the fact that i never get to do anything insane cuz i have no friends. so if i ever make friends and have time to do insane things. this random blog will be full of insanity. so yeah....that's i have to say...i guess.

Today

So today was like every other day. watched prison break all day. and did really nothing.  yelled at the door "were not home!"whenever someone came to the door. me and Ariel went to macey's and got icecream. then i went to my aunt's and uncles for dinner. it was really boring. so i couldn't wait to leave.

People

So recently I've been texting my friend but the last 3 days he hasn't replied.i tried calling last night and no answer.i wonder if i did something wrong.

Life.

All i have to say is life sucks. we'll i guess it sucks just as before.except for i actually have one constant friend. my Best Friend. we've had many difficulties recently. sometimes i feel She's the only person who understands me. the only person who will ever want to know me. be with and talk with me constantly. everyone else in this world....just seems to hate me. especially the people i've known the longest. i just seem to be used as a friend of convince and in the long run i don't really matter to them. as long as i just have what they want. I don't really matter to them. or really anyone. it's great finally having a friend who actually cares for me. but i can tell that all of her friends don't really like me. theres about one who does. but the rest i feel like they just try and tare us apart. it really doesn't help that i'm a year older then her so i'm graduated and going to college and am getting ready to serve a mission. and when she tells me about her day i can tell that the people she hangs around with are happy i'm not there this year. and i'm saying that just cuz thats what i feel like. but it's the truth. the few times when i can go down and visit during school lunch to hang out with her. they all glare at me or put on fake smiles. saying. "we haven't seen you in forever!?" or "how are you?" and attempt to be nice to me. but i can tell. they all prefer it when i'm gone. they'd probably like even better if i wasn't even her friend anymore. but i'm not going to stop. she's my best friend. and i 'll stick with her. i know she'd never leave me. and i know she says screw all those other people who look down on me. she embraces who i am. i'm never a friend of convince. she includes me even if i got to the parities she throws and all those other people are there. she makes sure i have someone to talk to. (okay. so someone meaning mainly her) and i'm not left alone during it so i can have a somewhat fun time. all i ever have to question is. Why do people treat me like crap, and they don't know me? are there horrible rumors or something? -sighs - i'll probably never know.