There and back again

i rather hate that saying. "There and Back again." the reason i hate it is because what if you don't want to go back. what if you want to just stay where you are? thats the story of my life. i leave my home i want to stay away and not go back. because when i go back i know exactly whats going to happen. i'll be ignored and looked down upon. and i'll feel like sinner in a house hold of similar people. I'm the only odd one in the family. everyone else gets along. except me. i'm different and they judge me and look down on me because of it.  So why go back? why not just stay where i'll be happy and never looked down on. Somewhere where i fit in...somewhat. i don't really fit in anywhere. i guess thats my randomness for tonight.