Life.

All i have to say is life sucks. we'll i guess it sucks just as before.except for i actually have one constant friend. my Best Friend. we've had many difficulties recently. sometimes i feel She's the only person who understands me. the only person who will ever want to know me. be with and talk with me constantly. everyone else in this world....just seems to hate me. especially the people i've known the longest. i just seem to be used as a friend of convince and in the long run i don't really matter to them. as long as i just have what they want. I don't really matter to them. or really anyone. it's great finally having a friend who actually cares for me. but i can tell that all of her friends don't really like me. theres about one who does. but the rest i feel like they just try and tare us apart. it really doesn't help that i'm a year older then her so i'm graduated and going to college and am getting ready to serve a mission. and when she tells me about her day i can tell that the people she hangs around with are happy i'm not there this year. and i'm saying that just cuz thats what i feel like. but it's the truth. the few times when i can go down and visit during school lunch to hang out with her. they all glare at me or put on fake smiles. saying. "we haven't seen you in forever!?" or "how are you?" and attempt to be nice to me. but i can tell. they all prefer it when i'm gone. they'd probably like even better if i wasn't even her friend anymore. but i'm not going to stop. she's my best friend. and i 'll stick with her. i know she'd never leave me. and i know she says screw all those other people who look down on me. she embraces who i am. i'm never a friend of convince. she includes me even if i got to the parities she throws and all those other people are there. she makes sure i have someone to talk to. (okay. so someone meaning mainly her) and i'm not left alone during it so i can have a somewhat fun time. all i ever have to question is. Why do people treat me like crap, and they don't know me? are there horrible rumors or something? -sighs - i'll probably never know.