-sighs-

I'm a Horrible Person. I swear almost everytime i talk to my best friend. I piss her off. i don't want to go to her party becasue there are more cons then pros on me going. 

Cons:
I'll be avoiding her and her idiot boyfriend
I'll be avoiding Aubrey
I'll be miserable
I won't know anyone
I'll have to wear a dress
I'll have to take work off


Pros:
nothing. i can't think of any pros. so i told her i wasn't going to go. i explained why and all she did was get mad even when she said she wouldn't. -sighs- i feel like she lies to me. she said she wouldn't get mad. but guess what? She did. I feel like i can't talk to her like i used too.  I get it. it's her last birthday before i leave on my mission for 18 months. i told i could come on her actual birthday and hang out with her. but she didn't care. i have to be at her party. so i finally gave in. but i told her i'd only take one day off of work because i need money for my mission. witch is true. and she just got even more mad. she wont even talk to me. i could've easily lied to her. and just not have gone. cuz i "forgot" to take work off or "my boss wont let me" but no. i have to be a good person and tell the truth. and of course i have to tell her before my birthday. so i don't even know if she still wants to come down for that. -sighs- it's stoopid. i feel like all we do is fight now a days. and i hate fighting. we'll be fine for a few days. but then she gets mad at me again.  -sighs-  we've gone through hell together. and were continually going back. I don't want to go through hell again.I wish she would just support what i want to do. I support everything she does. even with her boyfriend. I told what i thought. and i ended it at that.and i let her do her thing. but whenever i try and do something or i oppose what she wants. she gets way pissed. and i'm sick of it. -sighs-